I'm sitting here packing my things for tomorrow morning. (Did I really get myself into this?) Wake up call is at 4:30am. I have to leave the house by 5:15am. (What was I thinking?) I picked up my race packet today and got my number and everything I need for tomorrow (What if I can't finish it?).
(What if I fall?)
(What if I collapse and can't finish the run?)
(What if I am the last person in?)
(What if I go the wrong way?)
So how am I feeling you ask? Well, I'd love to say that I am nervous and excited and leave it at that but I find myself thinking that maybe there will be a torrential downpour of thunder and rain tomorrow morning and I can gracefully bow out. Suddenly, the stronger side of me, the one that has spent hours running and cycling answers all my questions:
You got yourself into this because you are strong and you can do it.
You were thinking it would be an adventure and it will be.
You can finish it. You've trained.
If you fall, get back up like you have from harder things that have happened in the past.
Collapsing is not an option - this is why you prepared!
It doesn't matter if you are last, so long as you finish what you have begun.
There are signs telling you where to go!!
My strong side tells my nervous side to shut up and just go out there and have fun and do it. And I will. I'm hoping to post tomorrow with a very simple, short title. It will say, "I DID IT!".
Wish me luck! :-)
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